My motivation for offering the materials in this web site is muddy. I don't expect to offer anything for sale, so there is no commercial purpose. I don't expect anyone to consider me an expert, guide or sage, so there is no desire for, or intention to receive, ego gratification. I run from the room (generally not screaming as it isn't my style) when I hear words and phrases that appear taken from the top 100 in what might be a new age dictionary; words like "healing", "higher consciousness", as well as products or services hoping to help me get closer to peace, wisdom, Divine Mind, health, Spirit. I take much inspiration from sources such as the Tao Te Ching (Lao Tzu), which you can access on line. Another guide to my feeling about guiding others lies in the story told by Joseph Campbell regarding the search for the Holy Grail:
In the story of Sir Galahad, the knights agree to go on a quest, but thinking it would be a disgrace to go forth in a group, each "entered into the forest, at one point or another, there where they saw it to be thickest, all in those places where they found no way or path." Where there is a way or a path, it's someone else's way. Each knight enters the forest at the most mysterious point and follows his own intuition. What each brings forth is what never before was on land or sea: the fulfillment of his unique potentialities, which are different from anybody else's. All you get on your life way are little clues.
In that wonderful story, when any knight sees the trail of another, thinks he's getting there, and starts to follow the other's track, he goes astray entirely. (A Joseph Campbell Companion, Reflections on the Art of Living, ed. Diane Osbon, © 1991, pg 74)
The short version of these inspirations is that one must live with uncertainty and trust one's own intuition. These discomforts are a sign you are likely trying to wake up against the huge tide of cultural soma that would keep you yet another lemming heading for the cliff. There may be no better summary of the challenge we face than Curtis White's " The Spirit of Disobedience", Harpers, April, 2006.
Look for those little clues, and honor them; they are your center's gift to you. They are your centripetal forces at work on your behalf.